Jun
l'amour de'
Haz
What You See Is What You Get
about jun

Join me in my life of a regular Singaporean. Where there is nothing to do but shop and eat.
I am a 25 year old fresh IT grad searching for a career in a highly competitive market.
At the moment I spend most of my life in front of my laptop.
The internet is my currency to the world while I have none to spare ($$$).
Read my thoughts and opinion. My triumphs and my breakdowns.
I do not seek to inspire or beg to be praised.
Simply my honest takes and I am all there is.
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
.::dont i sound a lil sad::.

i feel good...all of my three email accounts have been housekept. i just spent a lil time last nite deleting msgs...its like a bit of load off my head now.

im still feeling abit anxious tho...the nerves from last friday's TP has not yet left me totally...i feel abit insecure coz of the lot of money i lost in the past one year on my driving practicals and tests, plus a little regretful...a little bit of negative feelings here and there...not helping much...but im trying hard to make myself feel better along the way like laughing, talking, being the centre of attention, eating, spending, haha, spending???...im broke now...well, stuffz like that...haiz...i look jovial on the outside but the truth is inside im not...i need my friends now more than ever...

so i sneakily went to meet shahril at plaza singapura after school...no one else noes abt this...jz coz we both wanted to surprise farzi...hehehe...shahril's helping me get a job...where else, at c4 of coz...well it mite be funny to us now but later on the joke would be on me...farzi's leaving c4 for his ns...then shahril wd be bored, then he'll leave too...then my two close friends would be gone...leaving me...but i wont be alone...id make friends...but i'll miss them bad...but in the mean time i'll convince or rather persuade my dear 'mirror' not to leave...what a sad situation...

i have a videography job at another wedding this weekend...but im working for free...coz im in debt to my dad...dad's the boss, so...im paying back for the money he spent on my driving tests which i failed badly...i didnt have to do it of coz...but it makes me feel better...sort of like my sins are cleansed...well, i was the one hu initiated it...its been hard, but i'll manage...

and i wanted to get a job initially to pay for my debt and to pay for another driving test but dad's paying for it...he willingly made the offer...of coz at the expense of my working for free this weekend...but its a good offer...now i dont have to pay a single cent to continue my driving dreams and i still get to keep my job! God is watching me make my sacrifices...painfully...and He grants me His mercy...Thank you, Allah...*sings the song by 'Raihan'*
"say thank you,
thank you Allah,
thank you Allah..."

im sleepy now...think im gona crash while my family have their dinner later...i already had mine after my shower at 7 pm...

so i went to PS to apply for the job...tnx to shahril my application form goes straight to the erm whatever la...no need to go thru HR or whatever...i think i wana go to Toys-R-Us at Forum and apply for a job there again...i love toys...heeez...at least if the working environment sux over there i have the toys to compensate that...school's half day tomorrow...maybe i'll run down to town...wahey! i have my INT mini proj to work on...okkk...nx week la go Forum

okkk...i wana go eat and read a book...relaxxxx...my laptop is in the locker in school...heee...so i got nothing to do tonite...

posted at 7:25 PM

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